Staring at the sky

Waiting for it to catch fire

Hoping that lady luck was on our side

And for a moment believing she was

We missed 11:11 by a minute.

Staring at the sun

Blinking my eyes in drowsy disdain

Waiting for the lights to go out

Everyone wished fortune was theirs-

It’s just so cliche

I’ll die young and magnificently

Remember staring at the ocean

Watching the tide bleed red?

Wish those times hadn’t faded away.

And I always apologise, but I’m down for one more

You were right all along.

We're in a red world.

Don't ask why I'm here

I won't apologise

You wouldn't accept anyhow.

Just sit here

Hold my hand

And let the anger consume you...

Hold my hand

Kiss me

Fuck me

Hit me

Hurt me.

I can pretend not to like it

But I can't pretend not to deserve it.

death of desire part one

Soaking wet on the sand

I spend night after night wanting to fuck

Someone who hates being touched

I immerse myself

I'm knee deep

In self-doubt

And you're neck deep in my tide.

Even if I spent every day building a home for us

By hand

We'd be just as good as dead.

Brace yourself for another tidal wave

Self Portrait I

You're nothing but a cheap whore

Who spends every day making easy choices

Instead of good ones

Who talks to appease rather than enthrall

Everyone says you're beautiful

You're so goddamned beautiful

It's a shame you're so rotten.

What a waste.

Is this what you wanted to be?

It's not becoming to think

You're better than you are.

You're nothing but a cheap whore

And you have the nerve to ask why I'm gone

Haha,

Fuck you.

I have better things to do

Than to try and teach an old dog new tricks

rant

My words are sad

And I want everyone to know that I don't want you to be how I let myself think I am.

I want you all to be happy and learn

From my mistakes

Do happy things

Think happy thoughts

Surround yourself with happy people.

Love life, it's

Magnificent.

Every day is filled with beauty

You just have to look a little harder some days than

Others.

I want you to be stronger than I am

And to know when enough is

Enough;

To leave when you know there is

Better.

To stand up for yourselves when you're

Being walked all over.

To write words and music because

You love it

And not because you would die if you didn't.

Be strong, be beautiful, get your revenge

But most of all be dignified

And leave when you're not wanted.

The truth is I've resigned myself to this

I've given up all my dignity and my

Beauty

And my strength

For someone who I love

Someone who gives so much but takes

Ever so slightly more

Don't be like me, please.

I couldn't write enough to

Stop that sense of loss.

October 2009

nothing's changed, stay gnarly friends

Love is in the Air II

Look at you

You fantasy.

Watch you look at my face

For the first time today.

Look at me.

What a mess.

And as I watch you

Watching me

I'm sure that I love you.

Fuck you,

I didn't deserve any

Of this.

Love is in the Air

Why'd I choose one who loves sensation

As much as I do?

The One who loves

Drinking and fucking

And women

And me, he said.

Me.

But that would just be

Too goddamned difficult,

Wouldn't it?