rant

My words are sad

And I want everyone to know that I don't want you to be how I let myself think I am.

I want you all to be happy and learn

From my mistakes

Do happy things

Think happy thoughts

Surround yourself with happy people.

Love life, it's

Magnificent.

Every day is filled with beauty

You just have to look a little harder some days than

Others.

I want you to be stronger than I am

And to know when enough is

Enough;

To leave when you know there is

Better.

To stand up for yourselves when you're

Being walked all over.

To write words and music because

You love it

And not because you would die if you didn't.

Be strong, be beautiful, get your revenge

But most of all be dignified

And leave when you're not wanted.

The truth is I've resigned myself to this

I've given up all my dignity and my

Beauty

And my strength

For someone who I love

Someone who gives so much but takes

Ever so slightly more

Don't be like me, please.

I couldn't write enough to

Stop that sense of loss.

October 2009

nothing's changed, stay gnarly friends